I was typing a new thread on a scrapping message board I just starting visiting
(www.scrappindeals.com)
and suddenly got a bolt of motivation that almost knocked me out of my seat. LOL
The thread goes something like this:
Okay, I hope this doesn't sound stupid, but I thought if I participated in a challenge I could relate to, and have it be "public," meaning have people who I am accountable to, it would be just the kick-start I need to get myself into a good habit. LOL
I loved the idea of Rhonna Farrer's 21 Day Challenge:
http://rhonnafarrer.typepad.com/dreamy/
Pick a challenge and stick with it for 21 days, make it become a habit....
I am SOOOOO totally inspired by Ms. Rhonna's style, techniques, faith, outlook on life. She is truly an amazing gal!!
However, although I am TOTALLY inspired by all the great scrappers out there, the truth is, sometimes that's what makes me feel intimidated! LOL Their layouts, photography, composition, is all so, so, so perfect!
Most of the scrap challenges I see are very specific. They are designed to try a new technique, or are themed in some way.
This is absolutely WONDERFUL - don't get me wrong, but I think I am in a place where I am lucky to put my feet up on the couch by the end of the day and eat a left-over cookie, let alone fancy doodle in my art journal!! LOL I would LOVE LOVE LOVE to be able to do that every night, but I just can't!
But I started to think......why can't I??
Why can't I have just a little bit of time everyday to just be by myself and do whatever I want? scrap because I want to, not because I feel pressured.......
have a cup of tea with lots of sugar and cream (or a pina colado lol).....
read a chapter or even 2 pages of a book I've been wanting to.....
use my stinkin on-demand and TIVO every now and since I pay an arm-and-a-leg for it....
EXERCISE (YES I SAID IT!)......
call an old friend and chat......
GO shine my sink because it's THAT time again (any Flyladies out there? lol).....
SIT my butt on the computer and talk to new friends :)
WHATEVER it is I wanted to once a day.......
SOOOOO <follow me here, I am going somewhere> AFTER my gettin-a-ticket-for-not-wearin-my-seatbelt-episode today I was feeling a little blue. I looked down at the magazine I bought and saw on the cover, ole' Janet Jackson with a new, improved body. Of course, this made me even sadder being that the "before" picture of her in the article is really what I look like now. :(
http://www.canada.com/ottawacitizen/news/arts/story.html?id=d826d88a-397e-4cb7-a7cd-ee19e4f68e3b&k=43486
I mean really... 60 pounds in 4 months?? HOW can someone seriously loose like, what 15 pounds a month? I don't know about you, but sometimes my lunch is the left-over oreo cookie tops that Josh doesn't finish! LOL Not good, I know...
AND then, realizing that I ACTUALLY bought into the impulse buy at the register, I actually wasted money on this stupid magazine that I could have bought scrapbook supplies with for Heaven's sake.... made me even more depressed!!! OKAY, so $50 bucks wasted on my first ticket in like 10 YEARS, coupled with the fact that I was never going to look like Janet Jackson again because I DON'T have a personal trainer or chef who wake me up every morning with fresh-squeeze, pureed juice and a motivational get-outta-bed speech, set me over the edge.....
However, I thought Janet + Rhonna have the RIGHT idea!
I thought of Janet's song...
"What Have You Done for Me Lately" + Rhonna's wonderful 21 Day Challenges (partly inspired by Dr. Blume How to Rid Youself of Bad Habits)
http://drgingerblume.com/scripts_bad_habits.htm
...and I thought:
What Have I Done For ME Lately?
The sad answer is that I know it's been days even weeks since I have done something, for me, really me... not doing something for everyone else even though that does make me feel good...
What have I done for ME lately? I eat the wrong things, drink too much coffee, probably shop too much which makes me feel guilty, and I can't really think of one thing that I have which was particularly good for JUST me.
YES, I LOVE being a SAHM, I LOVE LOVE LOVE hangin with my boy every day, but there are times when I want a quiet moment just for me and there is nothing wrong with that!
I KNOW THIS SOUNDS SELFISH --- BUT,
In fact, just the opposite! It energizes my spirit, makes me feel good about myself, helps me to stop resenting others and allows me to focus more clearly on the the ones that I love with all my heart so I can BE a less-stressed, less-distracted, less-irritable mommy/daughter/wife/pet-owner/you-fill-in-the-blank-for-yourself.... lol
What is doesn't mean for ME is letting my 2-year old run loose around the house while I kick up on the couch, watch the lastest episode of my soap that I haven't seen in 15 years, and pop bonbons in my mouth without worrying about what's for dinner! By all means, if anyone else wants to do that, have at it and eat a bonbon for me! LOL
It's hard for me sometimes to NOT think of this as something selfish...
I'm a caregiver to my bed-ridden mother....
my father who has heart problems and was diagnosed with early Altzeimer's...
my "high-spirited" (as my Dr. called it) 2 year old who needs to be actively engaged constantly lol...
a care-giver to my husband (who is also disabled, run over by a bull-dozer 16 years ago) He can get around, but some days it's hard for him...
a care-giver to my dogs and my parent's ailing dog as well.....
even a caregiver to my garden. LOL
I don't feel bad about anyone these things, I feel bad because they are ill and need care; they don't wanna be like that either!!! I truly feel God only gives us what we handle, and I want to handle my life with grace and dignity and not resenting or complaining about it because there's no time for me <meekly> I am important too! No, more like:
<I-am-important-hear-me-roar!>
But really, who would I BE if not a care-giver of one kind or another.
I would like to find out. I would really like to get to know me again! LOL
Reading this helped
http://www.surgerydoor.co.uk/level2/carers_takingcare.shtml
But I figured if I "challenged" myself everyday and left myself to my own devices, I probably would taper off and then fizzle out with the challenge. I have to be "accountable." I guess that's the teacher in me. I think I work better when I know other people are expecting me to come through. Even if it is just signing up or hosting a challenge and only 1 other person who participates!!!!
SOOOOOOO This challenge I thought would be:
...a challenge that allows me to do something, anything for ME every day and record it however I want, in a journal or a notebook, on a blog (and I don't even know how to go about "bloggin.") on HERE?
...a challenge that, throughout the duration, has no time limits such as 15 minutes of reading or 1 hour of exercise every day for 5 days... like I said, sometimes it's hard enough to find time to just sit. LOL But during that time it can be anything you want, any time of the day, a take-it-when-you-can-get-it kind of thing.
...a challenge that is for me, just me and is all about ME! LOL (appeasing the inner child in me) for once a day, 21 days, which doesn't include strawberry picking with my son, or making a lovely dinner for my family, or whatever for anyone else but me. LOL (I KNOW I am soooo selfish!) Some days, this might be scrapping, or a movie, or it may be a quick as a 5 min cup of tea or I took some pictures of flowers, but the idea is to spend whatever quality alone time I can, with (you guessed it!) ME!
....carpal tunnel setting in, must. type. faster...
OKAY so the point of this blog is to be a computer journal for me (uhh duh,) and a place to record my progress for posterity. I am so baby-steppin right now in the blog scene, so I won't worry about making it fancy - schmansy right now with design and all. I think all I can tackle right now is the cool font color changes. LOL
I want to propose a challenge to anyone who wants in to take the:
What Have I Done for ME Lately Challenge!
It can be for care-givers, scrappers, SAHM, full-time exec, ANYONE who wants to rekindle an old flame - theirselves!!! LOL
If it's just me in the challenge, that's okay too! This will be a place I can record my thoughts, progress or setbacks, a place I can be accountable to, even if that person is just me. Most often, I am hoping to have SCRAPBOOKING or PHOTOGRAPHY as my main way of having some "ME" time, but I know that won't be every day.
SOOOOOOOO if you read this far, why not take the challenge with me??
SO? Anyone? Bueller? Bueller?
I will start when my family and I get back from camping this Memorial Day Weekend on Tuesday, May 30.
Okay, the sign up list is:
Susie
WOOOHOOOO One very important person participating.... ME! LOL
Let me know if you are interested, we could challenge each other ! Or, if you just want to read my bloggy ramblings, that's fine too!
SOO, uhh, ok, wrote a blog-book here so signing off and have a great weekend!